Ok, so this journal entry is going to speak on things I experienced at Hawaii. I have learned so much about myself that I wish I knew in 2012 or even a year ago... SHOOT 6 months ago. Nope I am learning this RIGHT NOW. So here we go....
Have you ever felt overwhelmed with anxiety, fearful or tired? I know you have, because you are my friend, are human being. In my 24 year journey in this world, I would love to accomplish so much, by traveling and trying new things. I would consider myself to be a big dreamer, analytic thinker, a productive person, and go getter. Even though these characteristics can benefit me, I tend to struggle when it comes to doing nothing, (some people call it rest). Rest is a foreign concept to me because I am use to being on my feet and getting things done. I like having a routine so I am able to get things done effectively and feel accomplished when I do so. I try to do so much... and the same is true when I get out of season of hardship, I want to keep going and apply all that I have learned. So vacationing was a time for me to think about NOW ( present state of mind).
Up until this point of my life, that is exactly what I have tried to do.. is too be nothing more than happy. I live each day as if it is my last. If I had a rough season in my life, I try to learn from it and rush into a new season, hoping that I would get it right the next time! As running has helped me become a better person each season, by helping me feel free, confident, determined and strong. Running has never failed me. I put in what I get out of it. It's like being in a relationship, how beautiful is it to know that the person you know loves you and want to spend time with you? That is what value comes in. You see them as someone worth investing your time and attention. One who wants to show us how much we are loved, we ourselves fall more in love with ourselves. Running has given me that!
Did I mention, I have a twin sister, ( we are fraternal twins). I took her to Hawaii as a gift from me from graduating from Cal Poly Pomona. We are very close. She knows what I am thinking to what I am going to say. It's like she can read my mind. Yeah, I know what you are thinking, "YOU'RE TWINS." LOL
Guess who is who, without looking at the caption? :)
The locals and tourists were kind and treated my sister and I with admiration and respect. As I didn't realize before, Honolulu is a small Island and many were so excited to meet Twins. As many took pictures of my sister and I... along with all of us in the photo, with their iPhone/ camera. I had the pleasure of meeting wonderful people a long my journey. As we shared our purpose in life, our careers, motivations, fears, and happiness.. I had a deep sensation of wanting to know more. We desire to be the best version of us that we can be. And this can be a very positive thing! We want to be more kind, successful, joyful, intelligent, healthy... We want all these things. Well, in my own mind, the most appropriate course of action would be to go out and do something about all the good you want to do in your life. Up until this point of my life, I want to learn and embrace every season, hardship or success.
As I look back on this vacation, I look back at it as a "detox" or "time to myself." My whole purpose of my blog is to be so transparent and share with you all that I have learned a long with my running journey. Until next week, off to San Francisco in three weeks. :))))